20K – Find the strength to keep going

The novelty has definitely worn off.

Four weeks into this book, and the initial sheen of excitement and discovery had fizzled away. Now I’m just left with a never-ending stream of words and sentences that I’m responsible for churning out, like a one-man literary sweatshop.

I know it’s not like that, and I know writing is a privilege. But right now I know exactly what Dorothy Parker meant when she wrote:

“I don’t like writing. I like having written.”

When I’ve done my chunk of words for the day, I do feel a sense of satisfaction and, yes, relief that I’m done and can put it down for another twenty-four hours. But when I’m in the middle of a writing session or – even worse – when I’m sitting down to start writing, all I want to do is distract myself with the internet.

I think it doesn’t help that right now the story is all encounters, moments and conversations that have the effect of gradually pulling Cal and Droov apart. As they each find their own tribes within the camps, all the shared experiences that brought them together are diminishing. It’s kind of sad and slightly upsetting seeing this friendship (which I spent so long building in book 1) begin to drift apart.

Ah well. Next week we should get back to the fighting and explosions.

It’ll all work out in the end.

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